SIPEI (:

BACK!!! :D

2012-02-27T20:20:00.002+08:00

YES!!! FINALLY, I HAVE FINISHED MY FYP AFTER 4 MONTHS OF HARDWORK!!!
:D :D :D :D :D
I guess my presentation today was alright and looking forward to graduation ;)

But I don't know if I should continue doing design :/ When I was rushing for my FYP submission last week, I kept repeating I don't want to do design anymore while cutting the papers HAHA
Time is tight and I need to make a decision soon :( Is either I rest for a year or continue studying when I am not even sure if I really like design now...

Anyway, does anyone know where can I get the tiny teddy biscuits (image shown above) in Singapore? :)

It's my special day

2012-02-10T22:18:00.001+08:00

Though I am not in the mood to celebrate but still, it is a special day to me ;D
Thanking God for all the wonderful people around me & I will always love you all :)

Dove

2012-01-22T16:56:00.000+08:00

It doesn't hurt now. No matter what kind of words are said to you, it does not hurt anymore.

Should I do it in my own way?

2012-01-15T16:20:00.002+08:00

It's hard for me to decide something :(
Take the risk & do what you want or trying to do something that makes everyone happy?

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Yesterday was so tiring and I didn't have much of sleep since last week.
But I am really thankful for the help from my sister and her friends who helped me out yesterday ;D Though it didn't go that smoothly yesterday but I just hope that I can use what I have an make something out...

If my world came crashing down

2011-12-16T23:44:00.001+08:00

It's really hard to continue this journey and I really feel like crying and giving up :(
No matter how hard I try to cry but the naughty tears just don't want to come out. I hope I can just cry out and comfort myself that it's going to be ok. How I wish...

There's no turning back now, just got to move on...

No Light

2011-12-05T22:03:00.000+08:00

Loving simplicity but it's a killer. I wish something complex can inspire me :(

Fall Hard

2011-11-21T12:00:00.003+08:00

I guess I still prefer to blog in black and white photos.

Sometime, I just feel that I don't understand this world at all.
Why can't I have anger? Why can't I be frustrated?
It is very saddening that when you are angry and frustrated but the people close to you are just judging you like what's wrong with you? It makes me feels like I cannot have anger and frustration in my emotion.
But I am a human! I have feelings.

If you like black & white photos, you might like this too :)
{ http://monochromatism.tumblr.com/ }

Seems like we lost it

2011-11-20T12:00:00.000+08:00

It is so hard to open your mouth and ask credit from someone when that person is your close friend. And because that person is your close friend, it makes it even harder for you to ask. I keep telling myself that I am doing it because you are my very close friend but somehow there is this devil telling me to stop making yourself like a free labor. Haha it's like an angel vs a devil arguing within your mind.

Falling, Catching

2011-11-19T19:55:00.001+08:00

I couldn't find the motivation to do my project when I know that this project is really very important to me. Things go on smoothly but it makes me doubt myself. I became so scared of uncertainty and feel that everything I do is never good enough and not very sure of what I should do. LOST...

Anyway just to put things aside, there is a tumblr that never fail to inspire me and I always find lots of inspiration after viewing through the beautiful and inspirational images that were posted. Some people may wonder where do I look for inspirations, this is one tumblr that I will view daily ;D

{ http://humbleforte.tumblr.com/ }

It felt so crystal in the air

2011-11-07T20:54:00.000+08:00

I took half of the day to clear my room yesterday. Threw away lots of books and used papers and brought them to the recycling bin. There are actually more things to be cleared however I realised half of the things in my room doesn't belong to me at all. I am just wondering, when did my mum put those things in my room? This is quite funny as in the past, it used to be my mum clearing my things in my room and now it's my turn to clear her stuff haha

Right now I have to focus on my major project and not to let anything distract my attention. However, when you are trapped, you do some inspirational research and then you got drag away, ending up doing things that have got no link to what I am doing. Now, I feel so guilty of wasting my three hours of time.

Shelter

2011-11-06T00:52:00.000+08:00

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind." - Dr. Seuss

Birdy - Shelter

Dead Ends

2011-10-21T15:48:00.001+08:00

It's last day of internship but I didn't want to go back to school either!
I am feeling very sad and angry now so it's best that no one disturb me if not I may do something hurtful and unintentional to that person.

Some people can tell you it's ok and just accept it but you are not the person who is receiving and having this kind of bad luck of course you will say it's ok! Wait till you get it and suffer than you tell me if this is fine!

No one can understand how I feel and now I find that it's useless to tell others...

A Dreamer

2011-10-07T15:26:00.000+08:00

Today is like a day where I don't what I want :(
I am wearing six colours today.
It feels kind of weird as I don't usually wear so much colours on myself but I don't know what happen to me today that I feel like I am in a mixture now.

Brutal Heart

2011-10-06T00:53:00.000+08:00

Sometime people just expect you to help them generate ideas.

Static Waves

2011-09-29T16:44:00.000+08:00

I played tumblr for a week and I guess I am kind of sick of it already so back to blogger :D

I am currently searching for a clear definition of courage in life.
Yet, I couldn't find the starting line to where I should start searching.

The static waves across the screen
define this notion
back and forth and in between
like my emotion

I hate everything about you

2011-09-14T21:43:00.001+08:00

I feel so lazy to go out this few days...
I feel like throwing everything aside and just go for a runaway :D
It's really a good idea but I don't think I can do it :(
There are so many things to care about and so many things to finish. I guess I just don't want to be an irresponsible person HAHA

The Daydream Bear

2011-09-11T20:52:00.001+08:00

I have just created a very simple tumblr for myself...

You've seen the worst of me
I'm all alone
You lost me somehow

Exhaustion

2011-09-10T23:39:00.001+08:00

I am really tired...
I feel that my bones are breaking soon :(
I feel so horrible now. I guess I am a depressing person and turns crazy after 11pm. Haha...

Riverside

2011-09-04T20:45:00.001+08:00

I am struggling with the giddiness in my head :(
Now I regret for not taking an injection and chose pills.
I don't feel very good to be sick...

Down by the river by the boats
Where everybody goes to be alone
Where you won't see any rising sun
Down to the river we will run

Out of it

2011-08-30T17:41:00.000+08:00

It is supposed to be a nice and wonderful public holiday but yet I am feeling worried and fearful. I woke up with a bad dream in my head :( It felt so real and in that moment, I couldn't differentiate between reality and a dream. I chose to believe it was reality in my dream and saw the terrible things happening. Now, I just pray and hope that it was just a bad dream and nothing will happen.

Everything I have I could lose within this fight
Somebody gotta tell me that I’m gonna be alright

A Satellite Heart

2011-08-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

I just can't wait for my weekends to come!
I guess I have been counting down how many more days to my weekend so that I can sleep for the whole day :D

I thought I am free from 'that project' but it's back to me again :(

I'm a satellite heart
Lost in the dark

Can't escape from fate

2011-08-13T21:02:00.001+08:00

Just finished writing my journal for this week's internship.
I try my best to finish as much work as I can during the working hours but I guess I can't escape the fate of bring back work to do :(

Could it really be that I am to pretend
That the sky is a brilliant blue?

Youth knows no pain

2011-08-11T22:32:00.001+08:00

Trying to pursue the perfection but end up finding yourself lost in this vicious situation.
Where is the limit? A question that is left unanswered.
And when you could not change the time to move back to where it started, you just continue to search within your soul. Finally, you found yourself but others think that you are a strange person. So you begin to search your inner soul again, trying to fix the flaws.
Yet, do they know that you are unique in such as way that you are just simply different from the average human beings.

I was feeling sad
Can't help looking back
Highways flew by

The start of something new / moving on

2011-08-09T22:40:00.002+08:00

I finally change my blog layout and updated most of the information :)
I am trying my best to throw away lots of sweet sweet designs that I love to use and moving on to explore a new kind of style. I am hoping to show some kind of maturity and maintaining that little bit of sugary feel.

This new blog layout is pretty much adapted from my name card design. By using the ribbon to create an identity for myself. In fact, there is a mirror paper used at the bottom of the die-cut ribbon. It looks nicer in actual as the paper has some glittery effect too.

Our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Too much for my ears to take

2011-08-04T22:55:00.002+08:00

I am hearing too much of the soul genre music this few days.
Just to balance up everything, I am blasting myself with lots of alternative rock music now.

The heart is a beating drum
The heart is a beating drum
It takes more than you wanted before
To keep it on

Tongue Tied

2011-08-01T21:31:00.000+08:00

I didn't mean to but just couldn't open my mouth to speak out.
It feels so awkward.
But I will try my best to say something the next time :(

Should it be black tomorrow? :D

Is there a better place that I should be heading towards?

2011-07-27T23:48:00.001+08:00

If this is the way it ends
don't tell me it's meaningless
there'll be no compromise
we fall in we too shall be
you held me and taught me how
I think I am ready now
if this is the way it ends

Exceptional

2011-07-15T23:00:00.001+08:00

Can I be the exceptional?
I don't really want to follow the crowd.
I don't really want to own one.

Handmade Stuff

2011-07-14T20:44:00.001+08:00

I have done some handmade stuff during my holidays and decide to sell them. It's a piece of artwork done by me and wooden bead bracelet ^.^

Evergreen Love

This frame up papercut artwork is called "Evergreen Love". It means a kind of love that last forever just like some plants retaining green leaves throughout the year. It is also inspired by Misty Miller's Evergreen Love song.

- Self design template.
- Piece by piece hand cut by me.
- Printed on specially chosen paper. The sliver background paper has a mirror effect which means you can see yourself on that paper.
- Size of whole frame is 19.7cm by 14.6cm.

This artwork cost S$27 (postage not included) and there is 1 only.
* To be mail by registered postage (S$3.50) only as this artwork is bulky and fragile :)

(Click on image to enlarge!)

Fruity Bead Bracelet

I put this bracelet together using a few wooden beads that I bought. Every wooden bead bracelets I make is one of kind ;)

This bracelet cost S$7 (postage not included) and there is 1 only.
* Can be mail by either normal postage (S$1.50) or registered postage (S$3.50).

(Click on image to enlarge!)

If you are interested in the stuff please leave a comment with your name and email or you can email me at sweetillusion92@yahoo.com. Thank you :D

I lost my metal ruler!

2011-07-09T23:21:00.000+08:00

I lost my metal ruler and I feel so horrible without it :(
It is my life! Without it, I cannot do my paper cuts nicely :'(

I'll show you all of the place I'm dreaming of

Jessie's B'day Present

2011-07-04T23:11:00.001+08:00

I did this as a gift for my friend's birthday present :D
I got the inspiration on doing this kind of paper cutting from this website. I love her works a lot and this is what I have been practicing during my 2 weeks holiday :) I am still doing a few more with different designs for my other friend's birthday. I guess I still owe a very good friend an extremely belated birthday present :(

Just to beat the void, I need a mission
A dream to stop me talking to myself

Untitled

2011-06-30T21:06:00.001+08:00

Just finished my paper cutting project ;D
But I can't post a picture of that yet cause it is suppose to be a gift for my friend ;)

I am taking my napfa test in two weeks time and I don't know how I am going to pass it. It has been two and a half years from the last napfa test I took. I was looking at the criteria for the test and I am speechless... Just wish me good luck HAHA

You name your child after your fear,
and tell them "I have brought you here"

A simple quote

2011-06-26T00:11:00.002+08:00

“There are many things in life that will catch your eye, but only a few will catch your heart…” — Michael Nolan

I always love those little quotes that will remind us of something :)
I think I am suppose to be going to bed now but I am still feeling awake...

Immersion

2011-06-24T20:32:00.000+08:00

My friend told me that my blog post is always an image with a few words and that's it.
In actual fact, I typed more than a sentence but before posting I decided to keep it short and sweet. Another reason is that I am trying to block myself and be secretive haha in another word is "anti-social"!!!

It's holiday now but it's never really a holiday to me. As I mention in my previous post, I am working on a paper cutting project after my friend introduce me to this blog about paper cutting, which motivate me to start a paper cutting project :D

It feels so horrible to have flu when you are suppose to be resting on that day and doing nothing :( Cause I am having a flu now and I have been sneezing since this morning. All I want to do now is sleep...

Take me to the riot!

Never Awake

2011-06-19T00:44:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

I shall live in the blur for the rest of my life...

Current project: 3D paper cutting :D

Say now it's been a lifetime of dreaming

Lost at Sea

2011-05-31T22:04:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

Yes! I found an internship company to intern in ;)
I feel kind of scared also :(
We are going to work in the real world! It is totally different from school and I need to learn independence during the internship :'( cause I am alone ~

Lost at sea, as i should be
And I'm not so afraid

Having trap moments

2011-05-06T22:24:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

Somehow I realise I need someone to guide me and tell me what I should do...

With that skipping rope, the trampoline
The crafty smoke that made us choke
But we didn't give up hope

I want my holiday :(

2011-04-24T23:48:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

Tomorrow school starts :(
But I still want to enjoy my holiday.

I saw the mirror staring back at me
And it told me I'm a self machine

Officially Open!

2011-04-20T16:08:00.002+08:00

(http://www.chensipei.co.cc)

HAHA YES! Finally after one week plus, my website for my portfolio is finally up ^.^

However, there are two works that is still not there yet but I will put it up very soon ;) There is a lot of javascript being used and it took me one and a half day to tackle them. So please please please wait for the script to low finish ;D The design for my portfolio was supposedly designed for many clicks in and it has a pretty loading page but what I am using now does not allow me to do it so I did quite a few changes to it. But I am still satisfied with the design now and who knows one year later I might change it HAHA

I know what I'm doing may be dumb
I know I should not be staring at the sun
But the thought of it leads me to temptation

I HAD ENOUGH!!!

2011-04-19T20:04:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

I HAD ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING!!! I AM SUPER UPSET AND ANGRY NOW!!!

What I want to say is,
Stop forcing me to finish my portfolio because I am feeling the pressure :(
Please make the courtesy to call back when a person have been looking for you since this morning. You totally kill everything when you just send a message to reply me when I got so much things to tell you initially.

I haven't had a good day since this morning especially when I allergy comes back and I am sneezing all day long :'(

Yes I feel so much more better after saying how I feel :)

In progress...

2011-04-11T21:19:00.001+08:00

(image taken from here)

I am currently in the midst of updating my portfolio so I am kind of busy...

Haven't go shopping after since holiday started :( So I went with one of my good friend and shop!!! I found a dessert so cute and pretty so I bought one and try it ;)

I found the clothes that I wanted and bought them. Somehow, I realise that we shopped very fast or is it time slows down...

The storm is coming but I don't mind
People are dying, I close my blinds
All that I know is I'm breathing now

Those dancing days

2011-04-05T22:29:00.001+08:00

(image taken from here)

I just finished editing a video for a project that I have done. I tried to upload to blogger but I can't :( Maybe I will try it again another time...
This isn't a holiday for me! There is so many things to do but I just want to enjoy my holiday :'(

Holiday Schedule

2011-03-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

YAY! I finally planned my holiday schedule and realise that the first 3 weeks of my holidays are packed! The things that I am going to do for my holiday is kind of boring also HAHA other than working, I need to prepare my design portfolio and start looking for design companies to intern in ;)

This is a gift, it comes with a price
Who is the lamb and who is the knife?

It's HOLIDAY!!!

2011-03-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

I was supposed to take a video for my design works today but I didn't :(
I feel like I have lost track of time. I seriously need to plan and make full use of my holidays though I know I might not go according to the plan HAHA

Wishing you could keep me closer, I'm a lazy dancer
When you move I move with you

I kind of screw up my work!

2011-03-24T00:00:00.002+08:00

(image taken from here)

I think I kind of screw up my submission instead of my presentation :(
I know my lecturers are kind of disappointed with my submission but if I got more time I will do a better job. Goodbye to my A :'(

Everything you do is a gem in my collection
I follow you until I get your perfection

YES!

2011-03-22T23:35:00.001+08:00

(image taken from here)

YAY! Finally submitted my work yesterday but I was kind of in a rush so didn't take photos of my work :( And yesterday, I was screaming in the morning cause I couldn't finish my work but I still submitted on time ^.^

Have you seen this brochure? It is a brochure that I design for OniCupcakes and they are using it now and given out to the customers :D

It is a 4 fold brochure slightly different from the usual three fold as there is quite a lot of information to be added in...

These dreams under my pillow
In the twilight of these white nights

I don't see the rainbow

2011-03-12T17:17:00.002+08:00

(image taken from here)

I am kind of having mixed feelings now! I am panicking but I am not worrying :( 5 more days left for me to complete my project! OMG I should start to worry about it :'(

How many days and nights will come and go
While the only light you'll see is from my glow
There will never be a dawn that breaks the spell surrounding us

Satellite Mind

2011-03-03T22:27:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

Love the image above because of the bracelets :D
If I have the time, I will look for materials and make those kind of bracelets HAHA

Indecisive + Being confuse = Not functional (This is the problem that I am facing for the past few days)

Stare up at the ceiling, preview of a screening
Flashback of a feeling, sixth sense of a call

Muse

2011-02-25T20:34:00.002+08:00

(image taken from here)

It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you’ve known forever don’t see things the way you do. So you keep the wonderful memories, but find yourself moving on. — Nicholas Sparks

Pull your little arrows out and let me live my life

I'm late :(

2011-02-22T21:58:00.001+08:00

(image taken from here)

Late for my submission today :'(
This is the first time that I am late for submission...
And I learnt my lesson to do my work fast :( :( :(

Rather live out a lie than live wondering
how the fire feels while burning
for life is like a flame
and the ashes for wasting

it all stops making sense

2011-02-15T19:59:00.001+08:00

(image taken from here)

At the end of the day, you don't know what is worth fighting for...

I am trying to work so hard and focus on my study is because that the only thing that keeps me going on and something that is worth fighting for. One day when you felt the same way as me then you will understand how I feel. Things that have happened which causes many changes make me felt so lost along the way. But to keep yourself going, you need to find something that is worth fighting for. It's a challenge against time...

Somewhere in between this ocean and mountainside
I have this dream I think of it still sometimes

The Storyline Ends

2011-02-13T01:13:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

Love is like grass. If you fall on it, it may leave a stain and some temporary pain. But you’ll get over the pain, it will eventually stop hurting. Now maybe the stain ruined your favorite pair of jeans, or maybe it was nothing special that was ruined, but either way the stain remains there. And with time, it will begin to fade, but it will always be there, a permanent reminder that you, too, once fell. — John Mayer

Shifting eyes and vacancy vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Happy 19th Birthday to me

2011-02-10T19:09:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D
And I feel a year old...

Take a deep breath and walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day

♥

2011-02-08T21:15:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

I feel so happy :D
Solved one problem, 2 more stuff to do then I can enjoy myself on Thursday ;)
And the best thing is I don't have school on Thursday. Hopefully there won't be last minute changes :(

You can catch me daydreaming
Did that moment send you reeling just like me?

Holiday homework

2011-02-05T19:36:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

I am currently quite lost now :(
I couldn't think of something that I feel is a great idea. Just wondering around and wasting my time, which makes me feel bad for not making use of my time well :'(

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn

I am falling asleep soon

2011-02-03T17:19:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

Now I am at my aunty's house cause it's CNY and I am going to fall asleep soon...
In the end I never wear my mint colour dress but instead, I wore a pink dress HAHA And I am so dying to wear black :(

I was alone, I always am at these big parties
watching you watching everybody
wishing I was more outgoing
wishing I was just a pretty wallflower

Mint

2011-02-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

Finally, I can have a little rest :)
And I can't wait to wear my new minty dress tomorrow ;)

Be my only, be the water and I'm wading
You're my river running high, run deep run wild

My handmade sweet bracelet

2011-01-23T13:22:00.000+08:00

Another handmade stuff by me ^.^ I love those beads. And I made one as a gift for my friend's birthday ;D

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see

My tote bag design

2011-01-22T01:23:00.002+08:00

Front

Back

This is my tote bag design for a module's submission. It is fully handmade ;) I bought the fabric and ask my mummy to help me sew the bag then did some silk screen and tie dye on it. Oh I also use sewing as part of the design :D Though it is not really very nice but I did enjoy the whole process but the sewing part is really killing me...

Don't bother me
What might have been lost

The start of a nightmare

2011-01-17T21:48:00.000+08:00

(images taken from here & here)

This two weeks is going to be really crazy for me HAHA I got tons of illustrations to draw...I don't know how I am going to finish it but I have to finish it :(

It starts with a picture
And it sits in your frame
And we part with a letter
And it ends in my name

Your biggest mistakes

2011-01-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

I smell like a candle! Cause I am learning how to do batik now HAHA
But everything end up quite destroyed as the dye smudged :(

It's a shame you don't know what you're running from
Would your bones have to break and your lights turn off
Would it take the end of time to hear your hearts' false start

Hiding out

2011-01-12T20:32:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

I feel that all this time I had been living in my own imaginative world and shutting down the other people's perceptions and slowly drifting away. I like the quietness and peacefulness when I don't really have to care about what others think but sometimes just feeling awkward in the quietness between us.

I am not perfect. Often I showed no signs of irritation when someone tries to disturb me but everyone have their limits. And finally, you won cause I feel very irritated by you. I like the chirping bird more that a parrot. Or maybe I am just used to the quietness that I have so I don't like so much voices.

Like an apple on a tree
hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach but you picked me

lost in somewhere

2011-01-08T20:19:00.002+08:00

(image taken from here)

Back to school :( :( :(

I am not trying to pressurize anyone, I just want to do better but never realise that we are different in so many ways.

When I'm gone
I'll know what I've done
I'll go where I don't belong

Time machine

2010-12-31T22:12:00.001+08:00

(image taken from here)

I wish that time will stop now and nothing changes because I don't know how much more courage do I have to face what is going to come in the future.

I had been kind of busy this few days. Haha I guess I always complained that I am busy because I don't give myself time to rest. Maybe I just like making things hard for myself haha Anyway, wish everyone a Happy New Year in advance ;D

And it's the time we waste swallowed into space
it's the time it takes to blow away

Gleeful ^.^

2010-12-26T14:45:00.001+08:00

(image taken from here)

I celebrated Christmas with my secondary school close friends and it's great to catch up with them :D It is also the best time to do shopping as everywhere is on discount ^.^ I bought some accessories from New Look and I like it a lot (: (: (:

Here are some of the Christmas gifts I gave my friends ;) I designed those stickers (Christmas tree, snowman, gingerbread man & candy cane) and also used some scrap materials from ShabbyPrincess.

Actually there is a few more gifts but I don't have the time to take a picture of them :(

Tell me about your thousands of lives
I want to learn about your other side
Cause I can't get you off of my mind

Christmas eve

2010-12-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

I guess I am half dead already. As for the past few days, I had been busy preparing Christmas gifts and working on a self-initiated project to design a cupcake brochure so I did have enough sleep :( It's supposed to be holiday for me!

Merry Christmas ^.^

Candy canes

2010-12-19T15:48:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

YAY! Christmas is in a few days time :D
I am currently preparing some Christmas gifts for my friends ;)
I can feel that my holidays are quite packed and I really wish that I can sleep for the whole day.

Maybe if you saw me today, you'd see me in a different way
See me in another light and love me whatever my height

Two weeks break

2010-12-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

(image taken from here)

YAY! Two weeks break ;)
I haven't been sleeping for the past few days :(
But I feel so happy now, cause I submitted all my assignments :D

Destroy everything you touch today
Destroy me this way

Counting the days

2010-12-14T20:56:00.001+08:00

(image taken from here)

OMG! OMG! OMG! I just can't wait for 2 more day :D :D :D
And it means a lot to me after this thursday ;)

But I need to finish my assignment first :( :( :(

But it's how you say them now that's changed
Cold but sympathetic all the same

Daydream

2010-12-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

This few days is going to be very busy for me and I only manage to get a 4hrs of sleep last night :( During the weekend, I bake the cookies, took photographs, edit and design the flash... I feel like I need more time.

Follow...
Follow me into the night

STRAWS ;D

2010-12-10T17:41:00.000+08:00

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I still couldn't find the striped paper straws like the ones you see in the first picture, so I make my own striped paper straws (the second picture) :D I don't think they can be use for drinking as I use double sided tape to join them HAHA

I am beginning to get excited for this "tea party" ;)

Darkness surrounds me for such a long time
But I know I will be fine in the summer

Wondering

2010-12-08T18:11:00.000+08:00

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I have been walking around looking for materials for my assignment. And now I am lacking of one material and that is the striped paper straws :( :( :(

And run from them with no direction
We'll run from them with no conviction

daydream

2010-12-07T20:23:00.001+08:00

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I found the right name to use for the magazine cover for my school assignment ;)

I tried to avoid AVOID my usual sweet style but can't help falling back into this style. I have tried on doing other styles before but there will always be this style where others will recognise you as. It is not really a bad thing but I WANT TO GET OFF from this style and GROW UP! HAHA I think I have overreacted.

take me river, carry me far
lead me river, like a mother
take me over to some other unknown

The Violet Hour

2010-12-05T21:35:00.001+08:00

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I spent most of my time staring at the laptop screen instead of doing my sketches...
Hmmm I am just wondering what should I name the magazine for my next school assignment. I think I shouldn't think about this first cause I still got 80 more sketches to do HAHA!

In the dark you tell me of a flower
that only blooms in the violet hour

Sing it out loud

2010-12-04T20:32:00.001+08:00

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I haven't been sleeping for the past two days :(
It's really tiring.
Anyway, I went to watch Rapunzel today ^.^ It's really a good movie and I like the illustrations at the credits in the ending. HAHA

I need to do 100 sketches!!!

Flying away from reality, whatever ever happened to gravity?
I see it clear, a shooting star!

Afraid, panic

2010-11-30T22:42:00.000+08:00

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HAHA I realised when I opened my bag, most of the stuff inside is pink in colour...
And also, I secretly put a small teddy bear in my bag and brought it with me to school everyday ;) Well it's not a secret now.

I feel scared to go to school alone and go home alone :( I could feel that I am trembling and I want to tell someone that I missed her :'(

All my little plans and schemes
Lost like some forgotten dreams

I hate corporate identity

2010-11-28T22:14:00.000+08:00

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I don't like corporate identity and I hate it to the core. It's insane!
I feel like jumping off the building right now!

Take me away...

I am too afraid

2010-11-28T00:50:00.000+08:00

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I was too afraid, too afraid to say something...
I just couldn't find my courage again. Do you know that you make me hate you?

I was a dreamer before you went...

Need some rest :(

2010-11-26T21:53:00.001+08:00

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I didn't have much sleep last night :(
There is so many things for me to do. I feel that I can't breathe...
And I still got 120 sketches to do D: I really don't know how I am going to finish it.

I lie awake again, my bodies feeling paralysed
I can’t remember when
I didn’t live through this disguise

Twilight galaxy

2010-11-24T21:01:00.000+08:00

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It's time to start work! HAHA while I am learning flash, we were suppose to do frame by frame and make the object move around by using given images so I chose a house. And I end up making the house fly around HAHAHA I find this quite funny HAHA

Now, I am thinking if I should continue doing desserts in my school design assignment or I should do something different... HELP!!!

Did they tell you, you should grow up when you wanted to dream
Did they warn you, better shape up if you want to suceed

It's not ringing

2010-11-23T21:53:00.001+08:00

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My alarm clock didn't ring again :(
Once again, I went to school extremely early but I did spend my time wisely when I am in school early ;) And I really can't wait to learn more about adobe flash :D :D :D

I tried to cry myself to sleep
'cause it was supposed to hurt

Keep calm

2010-11-22T20:13:00.002+08:00

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I think I am too excited for class today that I woke up super early.

I never thought that this will teach me a valuable lesson but I got to thank that person for being so harsh to me. From this, I learnt not to be too kind to people because no matter what you say in the end will still end bitterly...

I think I need a new place, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset

Mean

2010-11-20T23:59:00.001+08:00

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Why are you making me feel bad for saying how I feel? Is it wrong to tell how I felt?
I never realise that you are such a petty person! Thanks for making my today so miserable and I hope you live to what you say me.

Hmmm can feel that I am in an angry tone? However, in actual fact, I am just trying to be cold-blooded.

You can take me down with just one single blow,
but you don't know what you don't know.

Friday!

2010-11-19T13:11:00.001+08:00

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It's Friday!
I don't know what I am going to do today but celebrating it cause it's Friday ^.^

All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

I tell myself

2010-11-18T16:01:00.000+08:00

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Though I submitted my assignment already but I felt kind of sad :(
I felt the work that I submitted is not good enough. Others will tell me to try harder again next time but they don't know that there's no more next time...

Say I've let go, say that it's obvious
I tell myself over and over
And over and over again

breaking it up

2010-11-16T19:17:00.003+08:00

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It's hard when you try not to care about anything...

I feel like throwing my phone away or change to a new number because I don't want to see your sms. It's irritating!!!

tell me how's the way to see
show me all that I could be

hold on

2010-11-15T19:38:00.000+08:00

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I am just counting down to 3 more days before I can get that little bit of rest.

I think I am just not independent enough to handle things on my own and I realise I don't trust myself :'(

You stroke my fears away
And make me wanna stay
And bonfires lit up the shores

As I moved on

2010-11-14T13:45:00.001+08:00

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It's a beautiful day :) When I woke up, my teddy bears are surrounding me and they are smiling at me. They look so happy. How I wish I can be they them, always having a smile on the face...

I had to follow this calling from the wild
Into the shadows
Into the shadows of my heart

Something in this emptiness

2010-11-13T14:45:00.001+08:00

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I feel like I got this sudden urge and energy that is within me to make me want to do something crazy. I am still unsure of what I want now but I know I will figure it out someday when I am able to see it clearly.

I just updated my resource site with two new small images ;) Hope you will like it :D

I'm finally feeling like its ok to break into a thousand pieces, no one can replace, only I can find my way.

Something to remind myself

2010-11-12T16:28:00.001+08:00

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So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy, because you deserve to be. Believe that. And believe that dreams come true every day, because they do. - One Tree Hill

This is a lovely quote that I should tell myself... This weekend I shall go nowhere and stay at home to do my assignment. And I can't wait to go shopping next week :D

I took your matches before fire could catch me.

half gone

2010-11-11T18:00:00.000+08:00

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It isn't good enough. It just isn't good enough :(
I think I am giving myself too much stress until I couldn't sleep properly in the night.

You know how the atmosphere decays my bones
I feel the atoms on my skin

I'm not okay

2010-11-10T19:55:00.000+08:00

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This time, I think I am really thinking too much.
I woke up in the morning thinking what am I doing. Why am I studying design? I am starting to doubt myself :(

Sometimes I think about the past and I fall apart inside.

Never grow up

2010-11-09T23:16:00.000+08:00

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Just try to never grow up, and never grow up

Wandering around

2010-11-08T12:45:00.000+08:00

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It's Monday and I haven't really finish what I am suppose to do for my school assignment :( I got this feeling that they are still not good enough and I need something to help me breakthrough, but I couldn't find the motivation.

You never know what people have up their sleeves
Ghosts from your past gonna jump out at me

If this was a movie

2010-11-07T20:13:00.000+08:00

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Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we’ve been and what we’ve overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That’s what we like to think. But that’s not the way it is, is it? Somethings we’d just have to learn over and over and over again. - Grey's Anatomy

Flashback to a night when you said to me
Nothings gonna change not for me and you
Not before I knew how much I had to lose...

Cold Blooded

2010-11-06T22:48:00.001+08:00

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Why did I feel like everyone's reaction is just so cold blooded?
Or maybe I think too much... Just wondering it's the things that I done make others think that I am totally insane and try to keep away from me :(

Finally, I bought Taylor Swift's album and it's the deluxe edition so I got 3 new songs :D :D :D

You, with your words like knives and swords and weapons that you use againist me

Fragile

2010-11-05T12:44:00.000+08:00

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I woke up in the morning with a swollen left eye :(
I guessed I don't have enough of sleep.

You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
But I never thought I'd live to see it break

Please tell me why

2010-11-04T23:50:00.001+08:00

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Why others just don't understand what happen if they don't reply sms or pick-up the call means to the other person. I don't want to be a fool waiting for you and not knowing if you will ever appear. Please understand how I feel too :( The same way as you want me to understand why you will do this to me.

I'm, a satellite heart
Lost in the dark.

Kills the perfectionism

2010-11-04T16:46:00.000+08:00

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Sometime, things aren't as bad as this. It is the perfectionism that kills.

“You should never give yourself a chance to fall apart because, when you do, it becomes a tendency and it happens over and over again. You must practise staying strong instead.” - Elizabeth Gilbert

Presentation

2010-11-03T20:49:00.000+08:00

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Well, I think everything goes smoothly except when I am presenting, my papers slide down from the mounting board :(

I am craving for some sweet food now.

I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me